Why I Am Blogging

Thursday, 31 July, 2003 at 12:22 pm

Okay … trying to think of things I thought about after reading Why Girls Are Weird …

Firstly, I don’t get more than 5 hits a day. ^_^;;; Isn’t that saad? :b I don’t mind really. Means I’m safe … from people knowing about me, and me not knowing about them. The people I know who read this blog: SM00, Adam, Noelle, Amanda, and Matt. Yup yup. I think SM00 and Adam also count as 70% or so of my hits. XP Well, that’s on my main site, anyway. Or here. The index page. On my whole domain, I get about … *checks last month’s stats* 250 hits per day. But that’s counting page views and such. Like frame layouts, they account for a lot of pages loading … Hm, about 80 visitors per day. o_O;;; *is scared all of a sudden* … *erases memory*

Okay! Moving on! So I get 5 hits on this page every day. That means not many people read this main page. I dunno what people are looking at otherwise. o.o Umm … I forget what my point is. >.> My point is not many people read this. So I could post almost anything I want. Almost. And since I don’t use real names of people who don’t want their real names used, there’s no security issue. And … I dunno. Forgot what I was thinking about.

Mmm … I don’t think anyone but people I know and Amanda read this blog regularly, so whatever I was thinking doesn’t really pertain to me. And … I’m not really all that personal in here, am I? That all goes into my other … things. Which no one can read, muahaha! *coughgagchoke* Umm … What’s a blog, anyway? See, convo from book (no spoilers, I don’t think):

>You should see the other journals out there. One girl is writing about how she’s a stripper with a drug habit. It’s such bullshit. You know she’s not, because if she was really doing all of the drugs she was bragging about, then she’d be too blitzed to figure out how to post a webpage. Actually, hers is really more like a blog.
>What’s a blog?
>You really don’t know anything about this, do you? Didn’t you read any journals before you started your own? Did you think you were the only one doing this?
>Why would you read something like that, like the stripper website?
>I get bored. They’re like soap operas. I can’t stop reading some of them. I can’t wait to see how they’re going to mess up their lives next. There’s this one guy who is totally stalking his ex-girlfriend, and he doesn’t seem to realize it. He keeps going on about how much he loves her, posting shitty poems, and the next day he’s whining about some restraining order she’s filed. It’s hysterical. I love him because he’s so clueless.
>That sounds awful.
>It’s so much fun. Either you’re reading someone like you, who writes about everything you can identify with, or it’s this total train wreck you can’t stop reading about. You just read about their pain and thank God you’re someone else. It really puts things into perspective knowing you’re not some poor bastard fired from his job because of a porn addiction.
>There’s a journal like that?
>There’s a journal like that.

Hmm, that may be a bit long. Anyway. Written by Pamela Ribon. Goood book! ^-^ And umm … so what’s a blog? What’s a journal? What’s a diary? I always thought a diary was personal thoughts and stuff and a journal was a recording of events. But then someone said it was the other way around. And now I’m all confused … And I don’t quite know what a blog is. I mean … I know the technical term. The one I remember is “a place for news or updates or a person’s personal journal.” Ohh welll …

new music considerations

Wednesday, 30 July, 2003 at 5:37 pm

Hidek told me that for the Scientist music video, the singer had to learn how to sing it backwards. o.o I wonder how long that took …

And I want a Radiohead and Red Hot Chili Peppers album. ^^;; Well, I liked Creep (Radiohead) when I saw the music video. And There, There is nice. Once I stop staring at the video and start paying attention to the music. :b And I like Californication and Other Side (Red Hot Chili Peppers). So I’m thinking about it.

I also like NOFX’s lyrics on their latest album. ^.^ “American Errorist (I Hate Hate Haters)” :b “I see no world peace ’cause of zealous armed forces / I eat no breath-mints ’cause they’re from de-hoofed horses / Now I can’t believe; what an absolute failure / The president’s laughing ’cause we voted for Nader / I want to move north and be a Canadian / Or hang down low with the nice Australians / I don’t want to be another ‘I-don’t-care-ican’ / What are we gonna do Franco, Franco Un-American” “The Separation Of Church And Skate” (“When did punk rock become so safe” I have no idea what punk rock is, and I didn’t even know NOFX is punk rock. ^^;; I just know Kurt Cobain got into punk rock at first, and I didn’t like the music that program played.)

I dunno. Just makes me laugh.

Greymatter, site thoughts, and annoyances

Tuesday, 29 July, 2003 at 2:13 am

All right, it’s official. Greymatter is a pain in the … neck. Yeah…. *ahem* Put Noelle’s Tomoe layout on my archives and entries pages. :D Hehe. But it’s taking so long to rebuild the files … -_- So I might move to a Linux server. $5 cheaper. But that won’t be until the middle of December, unless I want to lose the money I spent on this year’s hosting. And I don’t. The only drawback there is I might have to contact support to get other ftp users to work. And I don’t like contacting people. ^^;;; Plus, it’s the little teeny tiny things. I don’t know why, I just like Windows servers more. They seem a bit smoother, somehow.

Or I could pay for Diaryland (which I want to do anyway), and link it from here. I’d get to use the private/public entry feature. :D

But I don’t know. That seems like a hassle. I’m not sure what I’m going to do.

Today I played The Sims, which all went to pot because I ended up getting the family in a bad sleeping cycle (imitating life, I see ^^;) and got one person fired. Yesterday … no, Friday, the day I started playing with that family, I spent almost $11,000 in two hours. o.o I also lost about $5,000 because I forgot to install a burglar alarm. ¬.¬

Right now I’ve got this song stuck in my head, Red Hot Chili Peppers’ “Other Side.” Mainly just the “How long, how loOong, Separate my side I don’t, I don’t believe it’s baAad” part. ^^;; Last night I had Good Charlotte’s “Girls and Boys” stuck in my head. “Girls! Don’t! Like! Boys! Girls! Like! Cars and moneEeEey!” :b

Why Girls Are Weird, blogs

Monday, 28 July, 2003 at 4:05 pm

Did I say in here that I was reading Why Girls are Weird? I don’t remember. Well, I am. And the first five pages had me laughing constantly. ^__^ Really good book. Last night I read maybe 50 pages or so. >.> Stayed up until almost three reading. ^^;;

It made me think … about online journal writing in general. Don’t remember most of my thoughts ^^; but yeah, made me think. Well, I guess journals written for a public (meaning … written with an intent to appeal to people) will have a public. But mine is written for myself. And … it has myself. XP Okay that was awful. Anyway. I dunno. That was the basic idea.

tv, Wedding Banquet; reading; The Sims!

Sunday, 27 July, 2003 at 9:36 pm

Today was a television day. ^^;;; I didn’t intend to do that, though.

Last night before I went to bed I was attracted by my Barnes & Noble bags. ^^; Pulled out Why Girls are Weird. Seriously, I don’t think I’ve ever laughed that much reading a book. I mean, they weren’t rip-roaring, huge guffaws. But a slow, steady, stream of laughter. I reeeeally like that book. :D I read like the first 20 or 30 pages then. >.>

Today I woke up so tired, I couldn’t concentrate on reading like I wanted. I watched a lot of IFC. One movie ended (in fact they played the Box Scores just a little while after I started watching). Played a short film afterwards. Wow, it was interesting. o_o Hidek walked by and saw the screen and asked, “What are you watching?!” Baptism of Solitude, it was. Paul Bowles. Very cool. Never heard of him before, but still cool.

The Wedding Banquet started playing in the next time slot, so I watched that for 109 minutes. Yeah. I don’t see how that’s a comedy. O_o But still good. I noticed that the parts where they spoke English, I had to pay more attention than when I read the captions. ^^;;

After that went downstairs and ate leftovers of dinner last night. Daddy started watching Mr. Deeds. He left to get Jichan’s steel cabinet, so I watched it. Why? I have absolutely no idea. I guess it’s refreshing to see Adam Sandler in a rather clean movie. ^^;; Tried watching MTV2, MTV Hits, VH1, and VH1 Classic again, as I usually do. Settled for Topsy Turvy. The attempts at being Japanese cracked me up. ^_^;;;

Played The Sims after. Started playing with the Goth family. Failing miserably. -_-

Watched The Adventures of Pete and Pete with Mickey. I didn’t mean to. I just sat on the sofa and opened my book, but every time I got caught up in the episode. ^.^;;

Some time during the day I felt so tired that I just laid down on the floor and closed my eyes. I thought, ‘Hm, like The Sim— O_O’ x.x; And I haven’t really been playing all that much, either. Just maybe a couple hours every day. Not anything like Animal Crossing. x.x Although I don’t remember much from that period. ^^;;;

Trying to find the little quote thing that showed up at the beginning of Baptism of Solitude. I have no idea what I’m looking for, though, so … X( Pointless. Found this though. I like it. :D

“Because we don’t know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustable well. Yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that is so deeply part of your being that you can’t even conceive of your life without it. Perhaps four or five times more, perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps 20. And yet it all seems limitless.”
–Paul Bowles, from The Sheltering Sky