for 27 years I’ve been trying

Saturday, 27 September, 2003 at 12:11 pm

Okay, so what did I do this week? Since I made layouts and stuff last week to fill my time … this week I wasn’t on Portibale much. ^^; Well, okay, I read The Moon is a Harsh Mistress quite a bit. I was halfway through on Monday, and now I’m about 100 pages from the end (it’s 382 pages long, 8″×5″ approx., and reads like this: Mum took her in arms, kissed cheek, said, “So glad you could come!” pretty much o_o). I also saw a few new music videos (Dashboard Confessional! XD) and got strangely attached to Degrassi: Next Generation. *shudders* Lauren Collins is in it. I liked her better in In a Heartbeat. :b Hey, what happened to Christopher Ralph, anyway? (I forgot about him, ever since Everwood started. o_O)

Anyway. Tonight I finally got this Invision Board installed. (For some reason last Sunday I downloaded version 1.12 instead of 1.2. o.O) It looks ooglay. And boring. But oh well. It’s there. I’ll fix it later. I also have no idea what to call it. ^_^;;;; Um. It’s at [inangeling-dot-net (linked to xox-dot-inangeling-dot-net)]. (I would have put it on the domain that’s “easier to spell” :b~ but fs.net doesn’t have MySql. Yet, anyway, I’m still debating that.) Umm, I made it ’cause I want a board to post at and SSH is … not there. ;-; So, there ya go.

And this past week … I’ve had lots of Dashboard Confessional songs running through my head. Fun! My own personal stereo XDDD I haven’t even been listening to it all that much. o_o Maybe just a couple times … really weird. Or maybe … really nifty. XD

Oh yeah, yesterday and Monday and maybe another day too I worked on junk pages for Elsewhere (and I haven’t thought one bit about the split), and … I thought I worked on another site. Oh yeah … Lyrically Longing. Must upload those pages now. ^_^;

Cardigans! XD “I never felt by heart that I could behave the way the roles were made.” Okay I’m done.

I’ll fight that

Saturday, 20 September, 2003 at 3:05 am

I watched Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door Thursday, with Noelle. ^__^ (And since then I’ve had two separate mentions of Halloween. O.o One from SM00, I forget what for, and one from my mom today, talking about doughnuts she bought with orange and black sprinkles. “What am I supposed to do, keep it for a month and a half? They wouldn’t be doughnuts anymore!”)

Wheee! More Spike and Faye-Faye and Ed XD goodness! Plus hearing the soundtrack that I’ve been listening to for about a year now without having ever seen the movie. ^_^;;; That was cool. “Ooh! This song! *hums along*” ^-^

We made a stop at Mitsuwa on the way home. Mommy and I shared a “pork-flavored ramen” from Tampopo. XD And it was better than the other, a bit … still really salty. Not that that’s bad, I’m just thinking about my system digesting it. ^_^;; I also got her to buy nori in the market. (wheee, nori!! :D)

Then we looked at that “book” (manga) store. There was this huuge thing with GLAY on it. $50. Hm. o_o (They’re like full of pictures, or something, I don’t know.) The Ayumi Hamasaki one from some 2001 tour is still there, $15. And I knew no one else there. (There was a book on the top shelf that was labeled Brad Pitt. :b) Couldn’t find Gokinjo Monogatari or Paradise Kiss or any other manga I knew and was interested in (Inu-Yasha :b). The Ring 2 video is still there. *shiver* Must watch some time. ^^

Looked through Trendy (really, it’s the store’s name). Not much. Inu-Yasha DVDs, three, for $60. All-region coding, too. And subtitles. But … I didn’t want to spend that much money at the moment. And there was this Totoro doll, too. One of the smaller ones. It was so round and cuute! ^__^ Me want. But didn’t buy. (*can imagine SM00 hiding him as well* D<)

Then after dinner Mommy, Hidek, and I went to Westside Pavilion. I wanted The Sandman: Season of Mists and maybe some shirts, and Hidek wanted an Element hat. What we got: Element hat (black and red, oooh), Element t-shirt, and Vans t-shirt, and two pairs of shorts (Dutch girl style, as Mommy said ^_^;) and a Nirvana book for Hidek; larger purse (ish cool ^_^) to fit my sunglasses, The F***-Up, For All Time, Sorceress, Born Blue, and lastly, The Sandman: Season of Mists, all for me. No manga this time. *gasp* (And the string of “teen” books, I’ve wanted them all for a long while. For All Time since 9th grade or whenever. o_o)

I don’t know how much I spent … hopefully no more than $50. ^^;;; Oh yeah! Westside Pavilion has a skate shop. I never knew. They also have a PacSun that’s more LA-style (read: more coool :b) than the one in Thousand Oaks (i.e. upper middle-class x_x). I was actually beginning to think that it might not be so bad after all. :b~ Ooh ooh, and and, there’s an anime cart right outside the PacSun! *dances* Although it’s not as fully stocked as the one by Noelle (two shelves of manga and one shelf of DVDs *sniff*), it has a website! :D I still have to check that out. ^^;; Will do tomorrow.

Parting words … new layout (BoA ^^) at [STF (link to layout archive)]. I still have to make a new layout for IAT. And make the wallpaper site. (Or maybe not.) And divide Elsewhere into writing and images (I’m gonna rename EW “Ever Elsewhere.” ^^)

I’m goooing underr!

Wednesday, 17 September, 2003 at 11:44 pm

I want that shade of lipstick that Amy Lee wears in the live (acoustic) performance of Going Under. o_o Must … have … No one has good shades of red anymore. They’re all brown now. Or purple. Or … whatever. Oh well. (Not like I’m ever gonna wear lipstick, though. ^^;;;)

And Adam got me the mp3 for “Breathe No More.” XD Sho cooool! :D

Umm … *trying to think of other Evanescence things to keep the trend going*

Evanescence is touring with Cold and someone else right now. I wanna go to a concert. ^_^; (note: I don’t like the idea of concerts. All those people … screaming and shouting and … so close together … *shudders* Plus the overly loud music.) I wanna hear Amy Lee’s voice live. *.* And I asked Hidek if he liked Cold and he said they’re all right. ^^;; But I’m not gonna think of it anymore, ’cause I know I couldn’t afford it, and I just don’t like going out, and I never really plan to go to a concert in my life anyway … Oh yeah, I really wouldn’t mind getting the seat farthest from the stage. I wouldn’t mind that I couldn’t see Amy Lee. I just wanna hear her. o_o *needs needs needs*

let me believe that I am someone else

Tuesday, 16 September, 2003 at 10:47 pm

… New layout. ^^;; Why do Lisa‘s and my new layouts tend to coincide with each other? (Lisa! I luff your new layout! Ish sho coool! XD And Hide was pretty cute. :b) Well, I got tired of my other one, anyway … and I was actually planning to put up this other layout that I made for my livejournal that I like (just have to rework it and refine it), but then I spent all of today creating this one from scratch. o_O And I think I like it more than my lj layout. ^_^’ (And yah, they both have Natalie Portman on them. XD Although the lj image is much more recent.) Now I just have to make a Natalie Portman layout for iat and I’m all set. :b

I keep waking up during the night. T-T Not one night goes by where I don’t wake up at least TWICE. I usually wake up three times … X( And then I can never fall asleep before 11. (Of course, it would help if I were actually in bed before 11. ^^;) Last night I fell asleep around 1. I listened to Dashboard Confessional’s A Mark, a Mission, a Brand, a Scar album three times yesterday. o_O Kinda got sick of it. ^^;; But yaaay, Dashboard Confessional! :D Oh yeah, this layout has lyrics from them. XD

And now I cut it short to attempt to sleep for eight straight hours … (yeah right). (Oh yeah, will fix page colors tomorrow or when I get the time.)