rise in the morning, sleep in the dark

I think I’m giving up mentally. But that could just be today.

This morning I woke up at 6:45 so I could sign up for next quarter’s classes (yes I have a really late registration date *kills rhyme*). I had enough time to walk around my room to wake myself up (and prove to myself I wasn’t going to fall over) and pull on a sweatshirt and take out my retainers and make a cup of ocha. Woo, 15 minutes go by fast when you’re not awake!

After that it was fun. Somehow it zoomed from 7 to 7:30 (giving Livejournal layout help in that time wasn’t a good idea, I suppose) and I had just enough time to make eggohan and get my stuff (including undrunken ocha) and get to my car, where I spilled a little of my ocha and had to run back up to get a rag to wipe off the back window so I could see.

Then when I got back here, I tried to take a nap, or at least rest my eyes for a few minutes, but I couldn’t settle down, I kept getting up. Having a cup of ocha then half a Dr. Pepper at lunch was probably the cause. Even now I’m still moving. O_o Or that may just be some weird … sleep-deprived, half-awake thing…? I don’t know.

Then from 5-ish to 5:35 I put up my new layout and tried fixing things (still don’t know how to make the date show up for every entry). Then ate dinner for 10 minutes before I left for lecture.

Came back, watched Gilmore Girls and Veronica Mars. Odd, but I’m thinking of the VM episode more than I am of the GG one. (I just started watching VM this season; it’s right after Gilmore Girls, and I don’t feel like going to bed or getting on the computer. This is pretty much the one night of television that I have. Other than random Mythbusters viewings on Wednesdays, but I usually don’t because Tuesdays and Thursdays are my heaviest days.)

So. Layout. Um. It’s Natalie Portman. I was just looking through the galleries at NP.com and thought these were layout-able images. I had a lyric or something to go with it, but I couldn’t remember it, so no text other than flimsysilence-dot-net. I think I randomly picked the colors from the colors that were saved in my Photoshop from whatever project I’d worked on last. *laughs* I do that a lot.

Jim Henson & co.

I’ve been trying to get my new layout up here since Friday, but I keep doing other stuff, haha! (I’ve actually coded the layout on my comp; I just need to upload it and tweak it through WordPress. But I’m trying to reorganize stuff a bit.)

So Something Positive (a totally PG-13 rated comic) introduced me to Tom Smith’s song, “A Boy and His Frog.” It’s actually pretty high up on my Last.fm Top Tracks list, tied for second. *laugh* Right after all the KROQ-y songs.

When I first heard it, it really didn’t have much of an effect on me. Kermit sings about not having Jim Henson anymore. Okay.

Bit of background here. I watched Sesame Street some (I’ll have to ask my mom exactly how much, because I really don’t remember watching it, but I can remember quite a bit of stuff from it); I watched Muppet Babies lots (and realized when I was older that the characters were based on the Muppets, which came before *snrk*); and for some reason we owned (still own?) The Muppet Movie tape (in what I consider the “Disney tape box”). I also remember watching Fraggle Rock, although I don’t think it was that big with my brothers and me. My brothers liked to watch The Muppet Show when it re-ran (on what? according to Wikipedia it wasn’t on Nick at Nite, but…), but I guess I’m not a fan of variety shows. I liked the parts with the Muppets, mostly the behind-the-scenes stuff, but was bored by the rest of it.

I never realized until I was older (maybe when we got The Muppet Movie tape) that they were all tied in together by this one guy, Jim Henson. That would explain the “Jim Henson’s” part of Muppet Babies. *grin*

All this happened after 1990 of course, the year that Jim Henson died. So I never experienced the “loss of my childhood” or anything like that. Therefore, I can’t really rely on past feelings when I hear about anything related with Jim Henson. It was all just some fun stuff to watch.

I think the song means something to me now. I don’t know why. Nothing really changed. But it’s a touching song, and I guess I can understand the feeling behind it.

Well today I read Randy’s (the writer of Something Positive) latest S*P strip about Carroll Spinney (voice of Big Bird and Oscar the Grouch; ya learn something new every day) getting old and eventually dying. I absolutely found the strip funny, possibly because I’m used to my childhood dying by now? I don’t know. Also I’m not that attached to Big Bird or Oscar the Grouch (see above regarding Sesame Street) even though I still enjoy them. But that’s not why I mention it.

Randy also posted a link to the clip where Big Bird finds out what it means when Mr. Hooper is dead. That aired the year before I was born, so it again doesn’t affect me. It’s sad yes, I feel for everyone yes, but do I feel a personal sense of loss? No. Although I found out about the character Mr. Hooper. ahaha. *shifty eyes*

I don’t really know what the point of this post is. I’ve said, this doesn’t really touch me, and why, and yet I don’t want to be perceived as cold. (Does anyone want to know what I was into as a kid? Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles! And Home Alone. I’ve always felt for McCauley Culkin. And Power Rangers. The first two or so seasons. And Rugrats. I was a Nickelodeon kid. Oddly, all my childhood faves ended badly. Or are ending badly. So I guess I still can’t really feel a sense of loss!)

I spend too much time writing in here. (One hour, woo!)

Firefly

Yesterday the Sci-Fi channel was playing a few Firefly episodes. I didn’t feel like doing anything else, so I watched one episode because, well, I see quite a few Firefly icons on Livejournal which makes me curious about a series that has such a following, and also because Jewel Staite is in it!

The episode I watched was “Safe,” and that made me really want to know more about this River character, so I watched a few more episodes. I’d seen “Our Mrs. Reynolds” before on Fox late night programming, but I only watched off and on until I saw Jewel Staite’s character, and I wasn’t drawn into the series then.

Now I’m really interested in Firefly. Not interested enough to go out of my way to see the rest of the series, but if it’s on I’ll watch it, and I’ll add the movie to my must-watch (eventually) list.

now you’re even older

Oh yeah, another instance where I felt my age, although it didn’t make me feel older, exactly … just that a lot of time has gone by.

Saturday I caught the last half of the one hour long All That special my brother was watching. It was so cool to see Kenan and Kel and Josh! XD Then there was a commercial break or something and someone said it was the 10th Anniversary Special or something, and I just said, “Ten years?!” I remember everyone looking like kids, I remember Katrina (she was my favorite), I remember Angelique Bates (she was the first to leave, right?), I remember that chocolate show, and how it always either made me want chocolate or made my teeth hurt, I remember the Ross Perot Character …

It’s rather odd that I remember all this. O_o Because I don’t have much of a memory of … anything, really. My past, I mean. I remember only a few things … a few weird instances … and thoughts I had … snippets. It’s like there’re more holes than cheese, regarding my memories … but I think I realize that I remember a LOT about tv … sad, really. I remember the first time we watched Snick. ^^; For some reason everyone was all together in the living room. Erm. Daddy was at the dining room table reading the newspaper, but we were essentially in the same room … or … were we normally all in the same room? I really can’t remember. Oh well.

Cassie Steele

I don’t know when I started watching Degrassi TNG, maybe the second year it ran on The N. Oh, I do know that Noelle’s family had digital cable at the time. I also remember that they got it when they put in the new floor. w00t! General timeline-yness!

*cough* Anyway. I knew the character Manny Santos as that cute little girl! Now she’s all … ehh. *coughslutcough* (The N never played her two-part episode, did they?)

But tonight, because I was being curious, in my follow-semi-random-links mood, I found out that Cassie Steele, the actor who plays Manny, is releasing an album, “How Much for Happy,” that (as far as I can figure, from her site) she wrote herself. I went to her site, and the pictures on the site are, eh, kind of adult (I just wonder, how will she feel about this stuff when she’s 30, or older?).

I also found out her clothing style is so different from her character, Manny. Manny wears all those trendy (ho) clothes, kind of J-Lo style. Cassie likes black (chipped, heh) nail polish, grungy clothes, leather jackets, and army boots. I guess it’s kind of like … I forget her name, the person who plays Ellie, she isn’t goth/punk, she rather likes to make her friends laugh. You just act the person you aren’t, because it’s more fun than acting like yourself …

But anyway. I just made this entry mainly to say, go to her site and see the video/hear the audio of her single, “Blue Bird,” because omigosh I can’t believe she can sing like that!! :O I love it. Her singing style is more earthy, low, not … umm, Jessica Simpson-ish? But she can still belt out notes. *grin*

I really really want to buy her CD … but I guess I’d have to buy it through her site … Paypal … and Mum and Daddy are trying desperately to pay down their credit cards at the moment. (Did you know that Hidek is going to start driver’s ed/training this spring? Eep, three kids under twenty-one on one insurance plan, killer.) Besides, it’s not like I have any money to spend either. ahaha. Oh well. *adds to want list*