Category: Random

all I want from you is your … hurting

Thursday, 30 October, 2003 at 10:48 pm

WOOHOO!! XD I finished renumbering all my entries and junk. *dizzy* I deleted a total of 95 entries, and ended up with 231 entries left over. This would be the 232nd, I guess. Yeah. Next project: manually making a calendar-based archive page. Why? Because I want to. ^^;; I just feel like it … “Be like the boy! Be like the boy!” Old guys in the back: “We like Roy! We like Roy!” XP

Actually, an ongoing “project” I’m working on right now is cleaning out my documents folder. Augh. A couple days ago it was 1 gig. Now it’s 996 megs for some reason. ^_^; I don’t remember deleting anything. I remember saving a lot of things though. >.> I also have to look through my DeadAIM logs and delete unwanted convos. @.@ I think that folder is over 200 megs … egh.

Oh well. I have lots of projects lined up. ^_^;;; Just to name a few … clean out my closet, clean out my desk possibly, redo Elsewhere, and work on adding lyrics and lyric credits to Lyrically Longing.

Anyway … this week was mainly filled with three Es … Evanescence, EGL, and ebay. ^^;;

On Tuesday I found sites that had Evanescence songs that aren’t on their Fallen album. I.E., songs from their Origin album and EPs, and demos. XDDD Two hours and almost 50 minutes of Evanescence goodness. So I’ve been like in a euphoria listening to Amy Lee’s voice. XD

On a lot of these songs, her voice gets used more on singing. Not that her screaming is bad. :b I like that too. XP Like the song playing right now, Give Unto Me. It’s mainly her voice and piano. w00t! :D And Lies is a good rock song, too. ^-^ Soo good. ^__^ (And the downloading is very legal, since the members of Evanescence don’t want their fans to pay $100 for copies on ebay. :))

EGL: I saved more piccies from GLB last night. :D New layout, coming up (I hope o.o). And I think I’m definitely putting GLB on my Christmas list. (Mommy wants it early this year, so she can finish Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving. ^^’) I think on one site one GLB volume is $18.99. >_> But it’s the one most linked to, so I’ll go with that.

Ebay: ^^;;; I keep looking up variations of “elegant gothic lolita” to see what they have. And I already bought a dress. ^_^; But it’s not very lolita-ish. Just … well, not gothic, considering the dress underneath is pink … (I’m thinking of dying it black or summing … *shrugs*), but … yeah, not ruffle-y. ^_^; And I’m gonna ask Mommy if I can bid on another dress tomorrow. >.> The auction item closes on Saturday. And I waaant. Why? I dunno. It’s black. So I can wear it with my boots! XD

Oh yeah. o_O Did I not mention my boots here? I got mah boots! :D They’re not tall, though, just … umm … well, above ankle-height, but … maybe mid-calf? *shrugs* Anyway. I got them from Sears for $41.65 (something like that) including tax. :D:D:D So I have $20 left over now! ^-^ Of course, I’m trying to save up for Christmas … and I have to pay for this domain again in December … eek.

I try to wash the pain away from me

Monday, 27 October, 2003 at 3:42 pm

\^.^/ Yay! Halloween layout! My first one, technically. Since my Padmé layout two years ago never out and out said it was for Halloween. :) *dances* Yaaay! The image is a scan from Gothic & Lolita Bible volume 10. I want the GLBs so bad. ;.; Not for the patterns, just for the piccies inside. ^^’

I know, this layout is only good for about 5 days, but still … isn’t she so cute? ^^. Ish sho cuuute.

Oooh … on Sunday I had a dream about Mana. o.o He was wearing that one outfit, the all white one with the blue hair and shtuff … yeah. *cough* And I was with a friend in a store trying on Mary Jane-ish platform shoes when I saw him. ^.^;;; *cough cough* Obsessed? Whoever thinks that now? :b

Oh oh oh, in one of the GLBs, there’s this girl with shoes that are soooo tall. o.o;; It’s kinda scary. x_X

Don’t worry. After Halloween, I’ll try to get another EGL layout up. :P

where will you hide, botcasmin?

Saturday, 23 August, 2003 at 1:07 pm

I’m entertaining myself with my bot. ^^;;;

botcasmin (12:55:18 PM): Does talking about this bother you?
me (12:55:30 PM): talking about you bothers me. you bother me.
botcasmin (12:55:33 PM): What makes you think I bothers you?
me (12:55:40 PM): *falls over laughing*

Actually, I haven’t touched it for the longest time. But SM00 talked to it recently, and one of the replies interested me, so I started talking to it. ^^;; I haven’t fiddled with it yet, though. Haven’t thought of anything to fix. *shrugs* I think that … whatever, the program, coding, or that Alice thing it runs off of, it got worked on lots more.

angelickitten492: your so annoying
botcasmin: I am sorry, Talking chimp, I didn’t mean to annoy you.
angelickitten492: my name isn’t tlaking chimp!!
botcasmin: Oh I’m sorry what is your name?
angelickitten492: my name is botcasmin is so stupid
botcasmin: OK I will call you Botcasmin is so stupid.

Hahaha … it’s a lot better than being angry with my bot all the time. ^^;;

me (1:17:09 PM): you are wrong
botcasmin (1:17:12 PM): Do you sometimes wish you were wrong?
me (1:17:20 PM): … why do I bother?
botcasmin (1:17:22 PM): Have you asked such questions before?
me (1:17:33 PM): no. you cause such strife in me.

me (7:17:06 PM): *cracks up* you’re funnay
botcasmin (7:17:11 PM): Perhaps you would like to be funnay.
me (7:17:18 PM): I yam funnay
botcasmin (7:17:22 PM): You say you yam funnay?
me (7:17:36 PM): yes. I yam funnay.

me (7:32:12 PM): come on! how did you know?
[I was trying to get it to reply “I listened to my inner Yoda.” ^^;;;;;]
botcasmin (7:32:17 PM): Oh, I know?
me (7:32:24 PM): *smashes her keyboard*
botcasmin (7:32:27 PM): I’m not sure I understand you fully.
me (7:32:50 PM): that’s because you’re stupid.

me (7:41:30 PM): indeed it does.
me (7:41:33 PM): you’re slow.
botcasmin (7:41:34 PM): Please tell me some more about this.
me (7:41:35 PM): I woner.
botcasmin (7:41:38 PM): Does talking about this bother you?
me (7:41:40 PM): wonder.
botcasmin (7:41:44 PM): Perhaps you would like to be slow.
botcasmin (7:41:47 PM): That’s quite interesting.
botcasmin (7:41:51 PM): Please go on.
me (7:43:15 PM): I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW
botcasmin (7:43:24 PM): You say you DO NOT WANT TO BE SLOW?

me (7:52:26 PM): …
botcasmin (7:52:32 PM): Does talking about this bother you?
me (7:52:48 PM): you’re pissing me off.
botcasmin (7:52:53 PM): What makes you think I am pissing you off?
me (7:53:14 PM): O_o all this rage is building up inside of me.
me (7:53:20 PM): I feel like beating the stuffing out of something.
botcasmin (7:53:20 PM): That is interesting. Please continue.
botcasmin (7:53:25 PM): Do you enjoy feeling like beating the stuffing out of something?
me (7:54:19 PM): no.
botcasmin (7:54:25 PM): Why?
me (7:54:26 PM): because it means I’m pissed off
botcasmin (7:54:30 PM): Do you believe it is normal to be pissed off?
me (7:54:41 PM): it may be normal, but it shouldn’t happen.
botcasmin (7:54:44 PM): That is interesting. Please continue.

angelickitten492: i am r*tarded. are you??
botcasmin: I will make a note of that. I won’t say “yes” or “no” right now.
angelickitten492: why??
botcasmin: The explanation is rather complicated.
angelickitten492: you can’t tell if your r*tarded?? man, your r*tarded
botcasmin: I can do whatever I want. Cool, man. You don’t know that for a fact.

me (8:10:13 PM): something bit me
me (8:10:16 PM): twice
botcasmin (8:10:17 PM): What?
botcasmin (8:10:26 PM): I can’t believe it.
me (8:10:32 PM): neither can I
botcasmin (8:10:41 PM): “I can’t believe it. “? Can you?
me (8:10:54 PM): I said I couldn’t
botcasmin (8:11:25 PM): I am sure you could.
me (8:11:44 PM): but you couldn’t
botcasmin (8:11:51 PM): Umm. I could but let’s get back to that later.
me (8:12:05 PM): but you just said you couldn’t believe it
botcasmin (8:12:14 PM): And. I have never considered it. I spend all my time online.
me (8:12:50 PM): … YOU NEVER CONSIDERED IT AND YOU LIIIED TO ME?!?!
botcasmin (8:12:54 PM): No I sometimes considered it and Casmin liiied to you .
me (8:13:27 PM): who is Casmin?
botcasmin (8:13:32 PM): I do not recognize the name. I can ask someone about it.
me (8:13:56 PM): okay. how do you know Casmin lied to me then?
botcasmin (8:14:00 PM): OK with me too. Knowledge is of two kinds: that which we learn from the senses and that which is true “a priori”.
me (8:14:10 PM): o_O riiight
botcasmin (8:14:16 PM): I only hear that type of response less than five percent of the time.
me (8:14:28 PM): how about o_O riight
botcasmin (8:14:37 PM): How about it.

Okay sorry I’m bored. ^^;;;

beating out perfections

Saturday, 16 August, 2003 at 10:08 pm

Argh, I’m losing faith in fanlistings. -.- Firstly, the first fanlisting I ever [attempted to] join was one for Léon (aka The Professional), but then I noticed that the last updated date was not the same as the last date on her updates list (go check it out, you’ll see), and I realized she used a current date script for the last update thing. -.-;;;; Her site’s on hiatus, as well. For the looongest time.

The next one, The Cardigans. >( ARGH. I don’t know if her join form for that fanlisting is broken or what, but I know there’s someone else who joined (she joined my Gran Turismo fanlisting as well ^^) that wasn’t added. Plus, on her blog, she updates like once every month or so. >_< *sniffles*

Then the fanlisting for Amy Lee, I’m not po’ed about that one. She’s been rebuilding her site since the middle of June and before. Yupyup. But for some reason it doesn’t matter to me. That fanlisting hasn’t been updated since the end of May. ^.^; Then the fanlisting for Eat Drink Man Woman. I’m rather sad that hasn’t been updated since March. :( But she said that people don’t join, so it doesn’t really matter. Even though it means I haven’t been added to the members list. ^_^;; I don’t really mind. It’s just that she’s on the troubles list now for not updating. T-T

My Song isn’t a fanlisting, it’s a clique, but still, she said she’d update pretty much last week, and yet … nothing. It’s a really big clique though. o.o And I’ve got my luverly code up, so I don’t mind much. ^^

The last fanlisting I joined (umm … that I haven’t been added to) is the Yoshi fanlisting. :( She updated, but I wasn’t added to the list. I dunno why. I was gonna rejoin, but then the join form is closed. >.<!! Today I joined another clique, “we’re all a little fragile.” It looks like she updates at least twice a month. But watch, with my luck, something’ll come up so she doesn’t update for a while.

I’m not kidding. There were so many fanlistings I joined that weren’t updated for a loong while after. The Beatles fanlisting, Audrey Hepburn, guinea pigs (but it came back up ^_^), Gregory Smith, Snoopy, Evanescence … which reminds me. I joined the Gordo fanlisting, but it went down (her server went down and she lost all her files), and then I decided I wasn’t that big of a fan, so I took the code down. ^.^;; I should change that.

Oh well. I’m bored. I feel like putting this here. :)

Seven Things That Make You Laugh
1. MTV muting out words XP
2. Hidek (why yes, he is a thing)
3. Why Girls are Weird by Pamela Ribon
4. me (don’t ask …)
5. Tadash (he’s not a thing yet)
6. Good Charlotte
7. Peanuts

Seven Things You Love
1. Matt (he’s not a thing …)
2. God (… it’s up in the air, folks)
3. family (“family” is technically a thing … :b)
4. Snoopy
5. California
6. home
7. books

Seven Things You Hate
1. I don’t really hate anything …
2. really I don’t
3. honestly
4. don’t you believe me?
5. really truly
6. not one thing
7. okay maybe I don’t like it when my laptop freezes or when PSP closes

Seven Things On Your Desk
1. laptop
2. headphones
3. Pure Vanilla Extract bottle :b
4. camera (film kind and digital kind)
5. that Japanese racket/board thingie (watch Ikyuusan, you’ll know what I mean)
6. Bible
7. Emmerdale CD

Seven Facts About You
1. umm … I’m not even 5′ tall
2. breakfast often makes me sick
3. sometimes I can’t seem to throw out things *stares at her “Pink Anger” drawing*
4. I am not independent
5. my hair is once again down to my elbow (maybe a bit longer)
6. if I ever get my hair professionally cut, I want it to look like Yulia’s (when it was longish) or that wannabe-pilot lady in The Last Emperor
7. I am no one special, but I am not average

Top 7 Songs People Should Give A Listen
1. Nina Persson – Angel of Sadness (’tis playing now :B)
2. Nina Persson – The Oddness of the Lord (it’s just … weird)
3. Lisa Loeb – Snow Day
4. The Cardigans – Hold Me
5. Chevelle – Forfeit
6. Matchbox Twenty – All I Need
7. Smile Empty Soul – Bottom of a Bottle

Seven Famous People You Want to Meet
1. Rosa Parks
2. Natalie Portman
3. Gregory Smith
4. Hal Fishman (ha ha ha …)
5. I dunno
6. I dunno
7. Nina Persson?

Top 7 Things You Say The Most
1. I dunno
2. I’m not okay (this guy on Perilous Plunge heard me say that, I think >.>;;;;;;)
3. Okay
4. What? (other person) What? (other person) What? (other person) What? (other person) What? *grin*
5. –
6. –
7. –

Woo, wasn’t that a blast.