Category: Weblog

let me believe that I am someone else

Tuesday, 16 September, 2003 at 10:47 pm

… New layout. ^^;; Why do Lisa‘s and my new layouts tend to coincide with each other? (Lisa! I luff your new layout! Ish sho coool! XD And Hide was pretty cute. :b) Well, I got tired of my other one, anyway … and I was actually planning to put up this other layout that I made for my livejournal that I like (just have to rework it and refine it), but then I spent all of today creating this one from scratch. o_O And I think I like it more than my lj layout. ^_^’ (And yah, they both have Natalie Portman on them. XD Although the lj image is much more recent.) Now I just have to make a Natalie Portman layout for iat and I’m all set. :b

I keep waking up during the night. T-T Not one night goes by where I don’t wake up at least TWICE. I usually wake up three times … X( And then I can never fall asleep before 11. (Of course, it would help if I were actually in bed before 11. ^^;) Last night I fell asleep around 1. I listened to Dashboard Confessional’s A Mark, a Mission, a Brand, a Scar album three times yesterday. o_O Kinda got sick of it. ^^;; But yaaay, Dashboard Confessional! :D Oh yeah, this layout has lyrics from them. XD

And now I cut it short to attempt to sleep for eight straight hours … (yeah right). (Oh yeah, will fix page colors tomorrow or when I get the time.)

save it for another day

Sunday, 10 August, 2003 at 12:59 pm

Woo. New layout. Don’t know how I feel about it … ^^’ Don’t know if it’s a sunrise or a sunset. :b And the blob-y thing-y is the shape of a moth I took a picture of … yeah … ._. So it’s up in the air! Erm, how I feel about my layout, not the moth.

Got tired of changing everything, so … all the subpages and stuff probably look a little off. Although I doubt people look at those things. Oh well. Greymatter is getting on my nerves. ^^;; Yupyup. See … usually I remember to uncheck the “Automatically rebuild all files” option after editting the sidebar … but then this time I didn’t … so I lost a few minutes waiting for everything to rebuild. x_x;; And I keep getting “Cannot find server” pages after changing something. I’m pretty sure it has to do with my site being on a Windows server instead of Linux. Windows doesn’t like cgi much, or something … or you can’t set permissions with files. Yeah … I forget. Oh well.

I was gonna use SSI to put in the sidebar, but then I looked at my stats and it says 10 people have visited this site (this index page) using Netscape 3. o_o;;; But then again, the sidebar isn’t that important. So maybe I’ll switch it tomorrow. :) Let’s just hope no one’s been linking to fs.net/index.html.

Also found out, looking at my extreme tracker, that someone found this site looking for “de-hooved horses.” o_O I figured out where it came from (NOFX’s lyrics ^^;;), but still … it’s a weird thing to be searching for … Ooh! And from the 18th of July to the 27th I got an average of 4 hits per day, then from the 28th to the 4th of August I got an average of 22, then 10 on the 5th :( then 46 the next day. Wooo. :b Did SM00/Adam/Amanda have some thing going on or what?

Now, to close this entry, a link to pictures of Lizzie Borden’s dad and stepmom. ‘Cause SM00 told me to put dead people on my blog and I said I’d link to some pictures. :b

Why I Am Blogging

Thursday, 31 July, 2003 at 12:22 pm

Okay … trying to think of things I thought about after reading Why Girls Are Weird …

Firstly, I don’t get more than 5 hits a day. ^_^;;; Isn’t that saad? :b I don’t mind really. Means I’m safe … from people knowing about me, and me not knowing about them. The people I know who read this blog: SM00, Adam, Noelle, Amanda, and Matt. Yup yup. I think SM00 and Adam also count as 70% or so of my hits. XP Well, that’s on my main site, anyway. Or here. The index page. On my whole domain, I get about … *checks last month’s stats* 250 hits per day. But that’s counting page views and such. Like frame layouts, they account for a lot of pages loading … Hm, about 80 visitors per day. o_O;;; *is scared all of a sudden* … *erases memory*

Okay! Moving on! So I get 5 hits on this page every day. That means not many people read this main page. I dunno what people are looking at otherwise. o.o Umm … I forget what my point is. >.> My point is not many people read this. So I could post almost anything I want. Almost. And since I don’t use real names of people who don’t want their real names used, there’s no security issue. And … I dunno. Forgot what I was thinking about.

Mmm … I don’t think anyone but people I know and Amanda read this blog regularly, so whatever I was thinking doesn’t really pertain to me. And … I’m not really all that personal in here, am I? That all goes into my other … things. Which no one can read, muahaha! *coughgagchoke* Umm … What’s a blog, anyway? See, convo from book (no spoilers, I don’t think):

>You should see the other journals out there. One girl is writing about how she’s a stripper with a drug habit. It’s such bullshit. You know she’s not, because if she was really doing all of the drugs she was bragging about, then she’d be too blitzed to figure out how to post a webpage. Actually, hers is really more like a blog.
>What’s a blog?
>You really don’t know anything about this, do you? Didn’t you read any journals before you started your own? Did you think you were the only one doing this?
>Why would you read something like that, like the stripper website?
>I get bored. They’re like soap operas. I can’t stop reading some of them. I can’t wait to see how they’re going to mess up their lives next. There’s this one guy who is totally stalking his ex-girlfriend, and he doesn’t seem to realize it. He keeps going on about how much he loves her, posting shitty poems, and the next day he’s whining about some restraining order she’s filed. It’s hysterical. I love him because he’s so clueless.
>That sounds awful.
>It’s so much fun. Either you’re reading someone like you, who writes about everything you can identify with, or it’s this total train wreck you can’t stop reading about. You just read about their pain and thank God you’re someone else. It really puts things into perspective knowing you’re not some poor bastard fired from his job because of a porn addiction.
>There’s a journal like that?
>There’s a journal like that.

Hmm, that may be a bit long. Anyway. Written by Pamela Ribon. Goood book! ^-^ And umm … so what’s a blog? What’s a journal? What’s a diary? I always thought a diary was personal thoughts and stuff and a journal was a recording of events. But then someone said it was the other way around. And now I’m all confused … And I don’t quite know what a blog is. I mean … I know the technical term. The one I remember is “a place for news or updates or a person’s personal journal.” Ohh welll …

Greymatter, site thoughts, and annoyances

Tuesday, 29 July, 2003 at 2:13 am

All right, it’s official. Greymatter is a pain in the … neck. Yeah…. *ahem* Put Noelle’s Tomoe layout on my archives and entries pages. :D Hehe. But it’s taking so long to rebuild the files … -_- So I might move to a Linux server. $5 cheaper. But that won’t be until the middle of December, unless I want to lose the money I spent on this year’s hosting. And I don’t. The only drawback there is I might have to contact support to get other ftp users to work. And I don’t like contacting people. ^^;;; Plus, it’s the little teeny tiny things. I don’t know why, I just like Windows servers more. They seem a bit smoother, somehow.

Or I could pay for Diaryland (which I want to do anyway), and link it from here. I’d get to use the private/public entry feature. :D

But I don’t know. That seems like a hassle. I’m not sure what I’m going to do.

Today I played The Sims, which all went to pot because I ended up getting the family in a bad sleeping cycle (imitating life, I see ^^;) and got one person fired. Yesterday … no, Friday, the day I started playing with that family, I spent almost $11,000 in two hours. o.o I also lost about $5,000 because I forgot to install a burglar alarm. ¬.¬

Right now I’ve got this song stuck in my head, Red Hot Chili Peppers’ “Other Side.” Mainly just the “How long, how loOong, Separate my side I don’t, I don’t believe it’s baAad” part. ^^;; Last night I had Good Charlotte’s “Girls and Boys” stuck in my head. “Girls! Don’t! Like! Boys! Girls! Like! Cars and moneEeEey!” :b

Why Girls Are Weird, blogs

Monday, 28 July, 2003 at 4:05 pm

Did I say in here that I was reading Why Girls are Weird? I don’t remember. Well, I am. And the first five pages had me laughing constantly. ^__^ Really good book. Last night I read maybe 50 pages or so. >.> Stayed up until almost three reading. ^^;;

It made me think … about online journal writing in general. Don’t remember most of my thoughts ^^; but yeah, made me think. Well, I guess journals written for a public (meaning … written with an intent to appeal to people) will have a public. But mine is written for myself. And … it has myself. XP Okay that was awful. Anyway. I dunno. That was the basic idea.